my price, my upper limit: 10 mil.

I ‘ve always said that, if i had enough wealth, i wouldn’t even bother to make any more. I’d just retire and do what I love. Stay home, play video games, smoke weed, and read and write books. And of course, talk to the voices in my head.

One number comes to mind: 10 million bucks. It’s more than enough to last me over 50 years (i’m 41), and I’m certain I’d never have to work again.

For you see, my friends, i live off just 12 grand a year, or 1 grand a month. 10 million to me is a lot of money.

Some hoodies be flauntin’ 10 million dollars like it’s nothin’. No to all of that.

So, if being a telepathic mutant, self asserted, is worth anything more than 10 mil, i’m retired already. Front me a cheque, homies.

Steve Mini from the 6.

Good, Bad and Neutral Hedonism.

In a dating profile, trying to define who I am, I stumbled onto Hedonism, which is, for lack of a better definition, placing a value on pleasure, and avoiding pain and suffering. At least, that’s what it means to me. I have not read the literature out on Hedonism (yet). These are rough drafts; where I get to be creative.

In trying to explain myself to a potential lover, I realized something. I espoused my method of morality and tradition, namely: that of being neither Good nor Evil, but rather, a Neutral person; And realized that hedonism fits right into my lifestyle choices.

But not just any kind of Hedonism, for, I rarely seek out pleasure for pleasure’s sake. But a different kind of Hedonism. Two or three different kinds, in fact.

Now that we’re on the subject of being neither Good nor Evil, but rather Neutral in my morality and moral decisions, let me explain my two different strains of Hedonism that I espoused, to impress the opposite sex (Why else would you claim to be a Hedonist, if not to impress the ladies? But I digress).

Good, Selfless or Ethical hedonism, is a particular kind of hedonism, which I espouse, which places a premium on other people’s satisfaction and pleasure, potentially above yours, or at the cost of your own. Want a woman to orgasm? You want her to recieve pleasure, and will do (presumably) anything and everything it takes, even if a little inconvenient, for her to do so. That’s selfless hedonism, and I might be one of the few men out there who espouse it, and want my woman to orgasm. But I digress.

Then there’s Bad, Selfish or Evil Hedonism, which sets you out to be the villian of this here tale, just like in that movie commercial. Anyway, you want pleasure, and don’t care at what cost – even at the cost of suffering of those around you, including your partners. Sadists usually want partners who are Masochists: They derive pleasure in their partner’s suffering. That might be Selfish Hedonism or ‘Bad’ Hedonism at play. Another example: Sometimes I am selfish, and want two love slaves, and polyamoroy. In fact: I recently told a woman interested in me to keep an open relationship with me: I can see other women, and she can see other men. This can be either selfish or selfless; which brings me to my point.

I’m a Hedonist, but sometimes I’m a Selfish or Bad Hedonist, and sometimes i’m Selfless or a Good Hedonist.

And that’s why I espouse a “True Neutral” Hedonism gambit, one on which, the future of my woman’s orgasms are at stake. I proclaim a neutral balance, a third way, between good and evil, where you’re either selfish or selfless, but probably a little bit of both – or neither! at times. This is where you strike a balance, and decide that you’re neither good nor bad at all times. This is probably what most Hedonists are. But I haven’t polled them and wouldn’t know for sure.

I do remain, your selfless hedonist in art, rather selfish at times, and neutral, neither good nor evil, on the moral compass of my own imagination, rather,

Steve Mini from the 6: “Neutral G.”

Want more? I’ve promised a collection of essays, and one on hedonism might be viable, especially once I’ve studied it a little more. I’ll get back to you with a collection of essays, probably on amazon, for pittance someday.

For now, feel free to contact me and ask me any questions. Ladies, chat me up. I’m perennially single in Toronto, Canada.

In response to Tolstoy’s “Non-Resistance” & Theories …

On a whim, I decided to read Tolstoy’s magnum opus, so to speak: “The Kingdom Of God Is Within You”, which asserts non-resistance and etc. which inspired the likes of Martin Luther King Jr. and others.

This book profoundly influenced me, though I have already refuted many of it’s arguments, mostly for fun. (I’m still reading the book, but have much to say of it already)…

I suppose that, after I’m done my BA, (in four or five years – I’m a part-time undergrad), that a book of essays should be published. If such a book of mine occurs, probably self-published on amazon and quietly dismissed, I should think that Tolstoy’s work might be a galvanizing work which inspires me to write, and possibly respond to, his own work.

I ain’t no Tolstoy. I consider myself a ‘literary hack’. But even I can refute these seemingly childish and simple claims, possibly because, over 100 years have passed, and life is so much different now. (note: as I kept reading, I became more and more inspired, and less and less refutations occured. It truly is a remarkable little book. Check it out for free. It’s on Project Gutenberg).

I just hope they don’t burn my responses, they way they burned his work. (Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe they never burned his work, either. Sorry to the literary historians in the audience. I’m a literary hack and don’t give a damn – for now).

In fact, when called upon to serve the military recently, I might have responded directly from Tolstoy’s work: that it is Christian of me to oppose. How’s that for Tolstoy?

Get bent, Greece. Anyway: I’m Canadian. Leave me alone to my writings and theories.

Steve Mini from the 6.


2.0

I really underestimated Tolstoy and thought the book was a farce of a joke for a few pages. However, I can’t understate how deeply inspired I am by this tiny work. It has inspired me to write my own theories and essays, if only to modify, review or refute some of Tolstoy’s claims.

For a work that is more than a century old, it predicts future world wars, espouses pacifism, and rejects the traditional churches, all in one go, all the while inventing it’s own Christianity, inspired by the gospel and non-violence.

What a remarkable work. And here I thought, as Tolstoy opposes, that Christianity was past it’s time and that it might be time to embrace a modern and secular condition.

He’s changed my mind a little. Maybe his “version” of Christianity has something to say to the modern man, who thinks Christianity is positively archaic.

Check out the book, it’s free because it’s so old. I found it on Project Gutenberg. I might look up other authors and read their theories. Some of the oldies must be great.

Training myself to read. 50 pages a day?

I’ve read books my entire life. But often, especially after being diagnosed, I took a long hiatus. I thought I ‘d never read again; I kept hearing voices which would interrupt my concentration.

Fortunately medicine has worked for me. I’m now on a 3-month injection cycle, and back in University taking just one course per year. Some day, I’ll graduate with a BA in English Literature.

I picked up “A Game Of Thrones” thinking about how much I love fantasy, and how much I’d love to try and write a book like that. There’s many things I don’t like about Game Of Thrones, but even more things I admire and respect about the books, now that I am finally reading them.

I’ve tried, mostly unsuccessfully, to read 100 pages a day. This would take me an hour and a half in my prime, when I was a young man; It would now take me more than 4 hours now that I am a little older, slower, and get more distracted.

I think this is too much, so i’ve halved my reading to just 50 pages a day. At this rate, It would take me more than two weeks to finish an 800 page book. I might be able to finish just two fat fantasy books a month.

Which brings me to my point. The reason I’m reading again, and training myself to read a little bit every day, is that eventually I want to try my hand at writing a fantasy trilogy or book. I know it will be hard, and that I might not be commercially successful. But my love of fantasy stems from a very young age. I need to try to write a fantasy book, else I’ll never know how and why I failed at it?

Besides, I’ll have to write a collection of essays, and at least one literary work of fiction and some poetry. I am a writer, after all.

I will graduate with a BA in English Literature four or five years from now, after being a part-time undergraduate, off and on, for more than two decades.

I hope to write after that. Winter is coming, as the game of thrones simply states, and I hope to be ready. I’ll read up these books then start on another fantasy trilogy in a few weeks. It could be months before I’ve finished reading a couple of fantasy trilogies, so that I have something to compare to my own writing.

My own fantasy series, called: Patriklironomicon, is about a young female elf who pretends to be a boy. This unusual novel came to me rather a-quickly, one day, whilst I was plotting; I outlined three main characters and their stories before the day was done.

At this stage it’s just an idea. But I have a rough draft of an outline, mostly in my head.

I also want to write, what I’d call a space opera, if they’re even called that anymore. It’s about vampires in space, and about genetically modified humans waging a war, interstellar, against them; I guess I should read Dune and emulate it’s greatness; it’s certainly a space opera I could get behind. So we’ll see. Lots of reading to do first. Then, a little writing. But for my space opera I’m inspired a little by the Warhammer 40k universe. Just when will it get it’s own movie or series?

But anyway. I’m years away from a first book or any sort of final draft. I might graduate from school before trying to publish my first book – and that’s four or five years away. And I might choose to self publish on amazon and not bother with traditional publishing houses. I doubt I’ll have many readers, but I do like to write. Why not self-publishing on amazon?

Anyway, update you in a few.

Steve Mini from the 6

Met a girl; Started Writing…

I’ve met a girl online somehow. She’s from New York. She said she’s thinking about moving to Toronto. I think we could hit it off if she ever does.

She has inspired me to start writing a little. I’m a part-time undergrad living with a disability. Though my concentration is limited and I struggle to read at times, (I don’t read as much as I used to), despite this I take one course per year at the prestigious University Of Toronto where I study as an English Literature Specialist completing an Honors Bachelor Of Arts.

I take just one course per year. I have 4-5 more courses left. So that’s 4-5 more years.

I figure if i start practicing now by writing every day, I might have some material for when I graduate. Who knows? Maybe I can bang a book or two out this year and pay somebody to edit them.

I’m thinking of self-publishing on amazon and creating a printing press company. Nobody’ll read my books except friends and family, but that’s alright.

I don’t have high expectations. But i’m a writer of some kind. I need to make this work. I’ve been studying English literature for nigh on two decades. It’s about time.

So i’ve opted for a daily routine of writing, even if it’s just for an hour or two after my league of legends matches are over.

I’m usually free 10pm – 3am and that time is consumed by Jungling in the League Of Legends. Writing might slowly replace my gaming time, however.

I’m honestly pretty excited to finish a fantasy book i’m writing, dubbed: Patriklironomicon about an elf princess who needs to pretend to be a boy. It’s cheesy, but it’ll do.

I also would love to write a vampire book as a sci-fi novel.

I’m also writing an autobiography about hearing voices and talking to myself. I was homeless for two years.

I also have many theories regarding Paranoia, Schizophrenia, and in general, hearing voices, about which I’d like to write a few essays and articles and collect them into a volume.

I also write poetry at times, though not as often as I’d like.

Catch you on the rift, summoners – or on google docs. I might livestream my writing sessions, if anybody is interested.

Take care.

I’ll update in a few days or weeks, and tell y’all how things are going with the writing. By then I might have a rough draft along with a sample to share. Though I’m wary: good stuff inevitably gets stolen in the public domain. I can’t imagine someone claiming to have written the work I’ve shared, but stuff like that does happen. Screw that. I’ll only sparingly share samples therefore. But i’ll update you. It’s a journey. I’m taking the first few steps.

Stephen M. Miniotis,
11 April 2022.

Jungling in League Of Legends after 9PM

Hey y’all. I found it extraordinarily difficult to complete my courework this year. I just barely squeezed by, probably with a 60% or less, to pass my course. Had to write three essays for this half course and read four books and a bunch of short stories, which I found difficult to do because of a lack of concentration.

I’ve been hearing voices as always, but sometimes I end up pacing in my room and talking to myself. I’ve made an extraordinary recovery and am able to even complete one university course every year, but I do have periods of down time where I’m pretty bad.

To keep my mind busy, learn a new skill, concentrate, make a few friends and socialize, I’ve been Jungling in League Of Legends. Every night after 9 or 10 PM i pop onto my stream and get annihilated. I’m of a very low rank but it’s quite fun.

I find that I don’t get tilted at all, and only ever blame myself … I’ve got a strong mental game. I don’t think I get tilted either, just disheartened and upset with myself if I constantly lose or get badly beaten. if I get badly beaten one or two times … I just give up for the night and say screw this ima do somethin else.

Y’all are welcome to follow me as I learn the game. So far in low ELO we almost always need AP every game, so I’ve been spamming Amumu. If I’m lucky and we don’t need AP I pick Warwick or Nocturne. I’m also learning Diana, another AP champion, in case Amumu is picked, banned, or I’m bored of him and just want to play a different AP champion.

I find this champion pool is really good, especially for a beginner. Diana is probably the hardest champion of the bunch, so I tend to avoid her, but do mix in a Diana game every now and again just to get the hang of her. She’s the only champion who doesn’t have a CC in my pool of champions I’ve just mentioned – other than I guess her Ulti which sort of AoE pulls everyone in to her. Is that even a CC? Whateves.

I also should play more master Yi but I instead just ban him every game. He’s the one jungler who always carries in low ELO – yeah I don’t want to ever play against a Master Yi at all.

Since we do always need AP every game, I’m contemplating Fiddlesticks too, or AP Shaco. I prefer AD Shaco so I’d rather learn Fiddlesticks since he’s sort of an AP assassin with his ulti and he has a fear and a silence – so he does have CC. Fiddlesticks also has one of the quickest clears in the game if you can learn how to pull two camps at once, which I usually do not do. But we’ll see.

I’ll update this blog less often and twitter a little. Message me on facebook if ya’ll need to chat with me (I ignore chat on twitch.tv and don’t really interact there – instead I play chillstep instrumentals without vocals and just focus on the game).

Cheers.

www.facebook.com/StephenMiniotis

www.twitch.tv/StephenMiniotis

Started a Journal, after all these years…

5 Jan 2022 Wed.

My cholesterol was high so I started walking every day for over an hour. Whilst walking, I started recording myself talking. That’s right, y’all, I’ve finally started a journal, after all these years …

I don’t remember much about my life, like what the voices were even talking about during my psychotic episodes or breaks with reality.

I would love to pursue sessions of hypnosis to unearth these memories, but I probably can’t afford a professional to do so and don’t know of anyone who could help for free.

But what little I remember, I will talk about in my walking journal, now that I have to walk one hour a day, I might as well record myself talking whilst doing so…

What I will be talking about in my walking journal/diary are what kind of books I want to be writing, outlines of various stories or books on my mind, and quite possibly, descriptions of the voices in my head, sort of like character sketches …

Though I don’t often talk too much about what the voices say, I can say that I used to play dungeons and dragons with the voices in my head as player characters. It got to the point where I unearthed an entire metaverse full of characters, villians and heroes, just by talking to the characters in my head.

Can this be a podcast some day? I hope so.

Catch you on the block, hoodies.

Steve Mini from the 6.

Started Shoutcasting on YouTube! Here’s a Sample:

Hey guys. Started shoutcasting on YouTube. I’m an avid League Of Legends fan. Check out some of my videos here, and be sure to like and subscribe!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCe0TO74m8RZwxd8HQqJoWYA

(And here’s a link to everything I do: Please take a look, and follow my twitch channel, I also livestream League Of Legends sometimes, I’m a Night-time EST streamer! All my links here: https://wlo.link/@StephenMiniotis)