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people in the lowest tier of League Of Legends are GOOD. They always pick OVERPOWERED champions; They out scale and out farm you. They’re generally GOOD. They MICRO well and their Creep score is HIGH. The question therefore gets asked: Why are they in the bottom 1% of players? I don’t know. But after 5+ years of playing league casually, I’ve never made it out of the lowest tier.

WTF? I’m a lifer in teh bottom 1%. I expect my games to be easy and to climb a little, at least to bronze or silver. But NO. I lose more than I win. So much so that i lose -17+ per loss, and only gain back +8-13 per win. Riot hard-punishes you in Iron regardless. If you lose often, you don’t climb.

To put things in perspective: I frequently get stomped. I have a 30-38% win rate on my two favorite junglers.

I’m stuck in IRON for lyf3 bois. gg I tried.

Of course, it doesn’t help that computer bots afk and want to tank their accounts to iron 4, because it’s lucrative to do so. Iron 4 accounts sell for far more than Diamond accounts. When it’s a 3v5 or 4v5 because 1-2 computer bots are afk; what do you expect other than a loss?

But the real issue is this: People in Iron are hardstuck, but they’re fundamentally GOOD. They’re better than me, and i’ve been playing for 5+ years casually. I can’t even win against the bottom 1% of players. I’m hopeless man.

I claim, jokingly, to be a telepathic mutant, certainly I am also an empath of some kind. I just have a Premonition that is rarely wrong, though it can be at times. I empathically conclude at times, even though i’m an INTJ – a thinker.

I sat down to talk to the voices in my head about these emulations I hear. Why is it, for example, that I can hear Madonna talk to me? Certainly, she cannot hear me talk to her. Therefore, an emulated Madonna is in my mind. This sounds fun. But imagine losing concentration when you’re driving because an emulated Madonna is talking to you in your mind. I no longer drive. And reading comes tough. Concentration sucks.

So I sat down to think to myself: Why not call madonna remotely, and end these shenanegans with emulations? This would be far more lucrative for me, i’d be able to recieve donations and gifts, the prize sum of any “streamer” even one who streams in his head. Heck, I summarized, I could have been a millionaire if telepathy was live. This, too, would have been lucrative for any remote handler(s) who placed the call. I’m sure their services are much needed and wouldn’t come too cheap. All of this could have been a company: or are they interested in me as an individual?

But twenty years on, of hearing voices, and not one person has ever donated or ever contacted me about this. Even after I put up a website: SteveMini.com, and requested of the voices to donate there if they feel like it. Nobody ever did.

So. Yes to Steve Mini from the 6. And no to Dr. Dre and Madonna and every other celebrity. Is that what the voices, basically, are explaining to me, harassing me every day, and challenging me to be a bigger, better man?

Oh please. Put madonna on the line. Or another famous celebrity. I need to raise 10 grand a year to drink my soylent dinners. Else: leave me alone.

Your telepathic mutant,
Certainly an empath, also, but that’s another story for another time,

Steve Mini from the 6.

I hear a death cult in my mind. But let me preface this a little. I write fiction. I talk openly about my disability to inspire other frenics and their families and people interested in hearing voices. But I am first and foremost a fiction writer. And the characters in my head are fake. SO when they blow each other up, I laugh a little, and write a little. But i’ve learned to no longer be afraid. It’s something akin to producing a movie with audio queues; it takes some getting used to. But hearing voices can actually be, well, fun.

To reiterate: I’m the type of schizophrenic who hears voices and is often paranoid. I call my voices “emulations” because they sound like they’re real, they even sound like dead people and celebrities sometimes – but they’re not.

One long-standing nuance in my mind has been the formation of a “Death Cult”, which, if this were a game, which admittedly, I designed it to be one, then “Death Cult” would be a talent specialization, in the vein of World Of Warcraft.

This Death Cult, in my mind, blows it’s members up on my behalf. Why? I don’t know but it’d make a damned good novel. I consider myself a villians writer. I write bad guys all the time. They blow things up. Some of them even spew obscenities – I’m inspired by the “evil voices” In my head and turned these bad voices into a win. They inspire me to write, well, “evil characters”.

The Death Cult members need to “get to heaven” i.e. die. And they vye for my attention to do so.

I won’t get into much detail about how this works. But they seem to constantly have a “Death Wish” debuff and are guild members of an ancient “Death Cult” with myself as the “G-d” or figurehead. This they refer to as their “ancient custom”. They claim being members of the cult goes back in thier family for centuries and proudly trace their heritage back some. Perhaps loved ones, siblings, fathers, mothers, have also died in this way.

Why did my mind come up with this? Certainly I am therefore very ill. But I’m also highly creative. Who says hearing voices can’t be fun? I mean sometimes the voices are dark, gory and gruesome, and abrasively rude. But this all makes for good fiction. They SOUND real; and try to convince me that they are. And that’s valuable to me as a fiction writer.

More to come.

note: I play a modified version of Dungeons and Dragons with the voices in my head, in my own homebrew setting, called “Alternate Earth”. Crime and Terror is pretty common in Alternate Earth, and innocent people get blown up often. Meh. More fodder for my fiction.

Today I squatted a plate on either side of an olympic barbell. The barbell weighs 45 lb; a plate on either side weighs another 45 lb x 2; That’s 135 lb!

I blew past this milestone with a full set – didnt even sweat it, and will be adding even more weight to the bar next session, as per my program. I don’t feel like a total amateur now – and I’m just 3 weeks into my lifting career. Talk about newbie / beginner gains! I started with just the bar about 3 weeks ago!

Thank you to the stronglifts 5×5 program. When I plateau i’ll move to the madcow 5×5 program and see how I like it.

I was also reccomended Phrak’s Greyskull Variant LP for beginners, according to reddit. But I opted to stay with stronglifts into madcow. Ultimately, doing compound excercises until you plateau is probably a good idea, especially when you’re a newbie, so that your whole body gets progressively stronger.

In the first few weeks i’ve seen tremendous gains; I’m also close to benching a plate and on my way to squatting two plates on either side.

I also deadlifted a plate on either side – for not one but 3 sets. I need to up the weight by 20 lb next time I deadlift.

I’m a bigger guy – big-fat as I describe it (instead of skinny-fat); – but now I’m progressively building muscle so I’m pretty happy with my significant gains.

I realized right from the getgo that this was a lifestyle choice – that I needed to sleep properly and get my nutrition right if I wanted to progress quickly. I’m glad to see the gains, proof that my nutrition, calories, protein and sleep is probably okay.

Catch you on the flip side!

Steve Mini from the 6.

YMCA enthusiast.

I might add 30+ lb of muscle in my first two years of working out. read on.

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I’ve started working out. No, seriously. After about a year of dieting, which saw me dip from 272+ lb to 230ish; I decided the next step was to gain some muscle and lose even more weight. I decided to join the gym.

But what I didn’t realize is that pushing yourself hard in the weightroom, as a larger guy, only means that your weight might go up, because you’re now adding a bunch of muscle into the mix.

I lift three times a week. I started off extremely weak, and incrimentally added weight after every workout to the compound excercises i’ve been doing. Because newbie gains are well documented, you gain a large amount of strength and muscle in your first year, and that’s a fact. You can press yourself hard and recover quickly. After a day’s rest you’re already ready to lift even heavier weights.

I’m expecting to add about 2 lb of muscle per month. I’m a bigger guy, maybe I’m genetically predisposed, so maybe I’ll luck out and get a little more than that. That’s at least 24 lb in a year before newbie gains fade. In my second year I can expect maybe, on average, 1 lb of muscle a month. That’s still another 12+ lb of muscle. In two years I could have added 36+ lb of muscle. If I’ve lost a bunch of fat, I could look alot fitter in two years.

I mean, that’s the best case scenario, if i’m dieting and sleeping right, too and don’t give up on the gym.

I’ll keep you posted; it’s already been almost a month and the weights seem ever-heavier; everytime I go in the weight room i think to myself: How is it possible that I’m adding weight to an already heavy bar? But I always come out having lifted the weights and done the reps. Go figure.

I’m doing stronglifts 5×5; I’ll do madcow 5×5 afterward most likely. But Phrak’s Greyskull Variant LP seems to be, at least on the reddit forums “better than Stronglifts 5×5 for beginners” because it has some arms to it, and it has some volume to it. If I could start all over again, maybe I’d take reddit’s advice and do that program instead. As it stands, I think any newbie program full of compound lifts is probably fine; I hope i’m not wrong. The first 2-3 months will be stronglifts 5×5; I’ll switch to madcow 5×5 after that and see how I like it.

Keep you guys updated in a few weeks.

I’ve also limited my gaming because I need to sleep 7-9 hours. I used to only sleep 5-6 hours a night, and always felt refreshed and never tired. But now I’m forcing myself to sleep for 7+ hours whenever possible; I’ve cut out my game time of League Of Legends and World Of Warcraft at night. So I won’t be streaming much – and I’ll be sleeping more.

Oh hey to my subscribers – the voices in my head?

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update: note: Newbie gains might only amount to ~2 lb of muscle / month for the first year, which seems more realistic. I might “only” gain 24 lb of muscle in the first year. I might be able to add another 1 lb of muscle / month in the second year. Mayhap 36+ lb of muscle over two years is more realistic. Still; I’m a big guy who packs on the weight easily; I feel like i’m genetically predisposed to making gains. Maybe I’m wrong. We’ll see in 2-3 months. I’ll keep you posted.

I’ve decided to make the switch to World Of Warcraft, alliance-side, Emerald Dream (RP-PVP) server, US. Come join us. I’m a night-time strimmer/player, hopping on at around 9pm EST and playing till 2+am in the morning. I mostly PVP, and have a resto/balance Druid and a beast mastery/marksman Hunter that I enjoy. I also have a rogue on the server, but don’t play him much. (Battle.net add me: SteveMini #1687).

I’m also on Area 52 Horde-side, with my retired High Warlord Warlock and a Monk. But I no longer play horde much, so we’ll see. Might faction change / transfer them to Emerald Dream, but we’ll see how things go.

If you’re thinking of playing with us, we have a PVP guild on Emerald Dream server alliance-side. I’m thinkin’ some of us will run mythic+ keys sometimes, too, at least once a week, but we’ll see. Come check us out!

PS: What will happen with League Of Legends? I’m still willing to play LoL on the odd off-night sometimes, but not very often. I just prefer World Of Warcraft at this time. But I’ll play both!

For some reason though, my GPU crashes when streaming League Of Legends, but is fine when I play any other game. I have no idea why. This discourages me from playing/streaming League Of Legends, but we’ll see. I might take my rig in for a repair – it’s under a 4 year warranty I paid extra for – so they might give me a new GPU if it’s not working properly. I’ll try to stream League a few more times and see how it goes and see if it stll freezes or if it was a one-off. If it continues to freeze I might take it in for repairs or even do a fresh install of Windows 11, and see how that goes first.

But for now: Consider me a World Of Warcraft player from now on! Just like old times!

Permit me my inconsistency: I am not interested in either gender. Although I identify as straight and casual, I’ve realized something about sex: The less you have of it, the less you want it.

I used to be that guy. Go to a bar. Use dating apps. Meet up with lovely women and try to ravage the poor sods. Most obliged. I can be pleasant at times. And I’ve always wanted that. Women respect a man who asks for it politely, I suppose. Worked for me.

But nowadays, I’ve gravitated, even in my art, ever away from sex, and more toward whatever I think my adulthood inevitably should be. I’m 42 this year, and not getting any younger. The bottom line: I no longer even want intercourse, and I definitely don’t want a girlfriend. I don’t want sex. Heck I don’t even want to write about it in my fiction or think about it.

I’m fine with asexuality, and living alone. In fact, I prefer such a predicatment to all other outcomes. I’m a homebody and a recluse. I answer to no one but myself.

I can deal with a gen-z label: Asexuality. Sure, I’ll snag an old beau when I can, Asexuality be damned. Am I even Asexual, then? I mean, I’d probably allow a woman to proposition me for pleasure. No, friends, your Gen Z labels don’t apply. I’m done with sex. I’m something of a millennial, and don’t even bother with it anymore. I’m over it. I’m not even Asexual. I have no label. I’m a sexless moron.

And the worst thing about sex is that everybody wants you to have the child if it occurs. Oh hell no you are not going to get my offspring, lady. No to sex. Somebody else can have children and be a sucker. I’ll take my League Of Legends livestreaming at 2am in the morning over having children, any day. I want my free time all to myself.

To get the title: ALL-SEEING, you’d have to have a vision score of over 2.0/min – and not just once. But in multiple, probably dozens – of games.

Yet in both my games, despite more than doubling the vision of my enemy laner, and taking umbral + zombie in the jungle game, I was unable to get a vision score of 2.0/min. In fact, the challenge asserts that I have never done so – ever – not even once.

Just look at these pics. Despite having such a ginormous vision score lead on my opponents – it was nowhere near 2.0 / min.

I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. And because everybody queues for support in low ELO, it’s really difficult to get into a game as support even if you queue for it. Making this challenge even more difficult for those of us in low ELO like myself. (And did you know? There’s lots of bots in low ELO who lock in Yummi or a troll pick and dive and die and want to lose – because iron 4 accounts are worth way more than diamond+ accounts. Facts. These botters then sell the account after it hits iron 4 for literally hundreds of dollars).

Anyway: This title unlock seems to be exceptionally difficult. Ima try to get it for a few weeks or months and see how it goes. I don’t mind a challenge. Maybe I’ll get some PERFECT vision score games in and nudge a 2.0/min score. I don’t see how else it’s even possible. But I know people who regularily get 2.0/min effortlessly – without even trying to. So it’s a me thing. I’m doing somethin’ wrong for sure. Note: Both games we lost. Like: badly. Despite my (what I thought was “huge”) vision score. Apparently vision does not win you games, gents. Kills do. lol. Until next time.

I’m diagnosed with Schizophrenia. But my doctor, himself a casual gamer of sorts, agrees: Playing a few matches every night of my favorite esport: League Of Legends, is probably good for me! He calls this “Behavioral Activation” and claims that my brain releases some good chemicals and stuff – and then I go to bed. He claims all that is probably a good thing, and it’s probably also a good thing that i’ve found a hobby that piques and holds my interest.

Gone are the days when people thought video games were bad for you. In fact, there’s also probably proof somewhere that, they might even be GOOD For your eyes, not bad for them!

I’m all for thinking positive thoughts, and embracing my hobby. Thank goodness my doctor is understanding of my disability and hobby, and is glad I play a few rounds of league of legends every day.

Thanks doc! I’ll definitely continue to do so.

Post-Script: I’ve heard disparaging remarks from the “voices” in my head, telling me not to play league or livestream so late at night. It’s as if chat from my livestream sessions has telepathically invaded my mind, and is disparaging me a little. Anyway: Bottom line: To those of you who think: Get a job or go to sleep or don’t even stream, too f’n bad! It’s my life, gonna live it how I want, definitely gonna spend my free time playing a video game and getting crushed at League Of Legends. I can think of no better way to spend my late night hours. So leave me alone about it, or bottom line: don’t tune in! Watch somebody else. Keep it positive, folks, or don’t come around viewing. See you around 11pm EST most days: my stream is at SteveMini.com

And if you can hit me up telepathically; why disparage me? I’m confused … definitely Paranoid Schizophrenia therefore. I’m probably just hearing things. My mind has a funny way of playing tricks on me. Nobody home.

End the discrimination! Is it because females clean up after themselves? Maybe they cook better than men do? Why the disguisting and disparaging “female only” remark, when looking to rent? I mean over half the listings I saw, require that you have a vagina – or no can do.

What the heck?!