Hearing Voices; Word Equations; On G-d …

God = Time
“I am not G-d;” saith the artist.
And therefore it was so
“Because I am G-d;” they concluded
And therefore it was not so at all.

-A paranoid Schizophrenic, to himself.

My opposition theory centers around faith, but in a different way, heretofore undefined. I find faith to be an intiger, the quality of which is often unreliable, but sometimes predictable. What if one does not believe in a supreme being? Does one not believe in himself?

Perhaps I should change my oft’ quoted line: “And: we’re all artists, else none of us ever were.”

to: “We’re all G-ds, else none of us ever were.”


One argument, often prevalent in literary art circles where one hears voices, is the erroneous conclusion that one hears “the voice of G-d speaking to him” which I find both factually hilarious and theoretically incorrect.

But let us assume, for a moment, that this fallacy is correct. If I hear G-d’s voice in my head, because I am a paranoid schizophrenic, wouldn’t that make me G-d hisself?

Certainly, therefore, I am ill and conjecture.

“I am not G-d at all” I tell the voices, so that they might accept that I needn’t be. (Very ‘frenic. Very suave).

But what if the voices disagree? I’ve thought very little on this, and conjecture. Some humorous responses and conclusions, which I shall keep to myself for the moment.

“The G-d Paradox: The Not-G-d Theory/Debate” -Steve Mini from the 6.



Proud to be a freemason, of sorts … but upset about one thing:

While I was an undergrad in university, I joined a fraternity. I pledged and was initiated. I was always keenly interested in what some erroneously call “secret societies”; it was only natural that one day, I’d want to become a freemason.

I respect that I was raised to the “sublime” degree of Master Mason and fully initiated; Freemasons hold that the third degree is the highest one can be bestowed upon, and the rest are just extrapolations therein. I’m fine with that alternative; I’ve never joined the Scottish Rite all the way to the 32nd degree!

Respect all my bretheren and the work. But what bothered me was the question I was asked, before becoming a freemason. In fact, I was carefully instructed that, if I didn’t believe in a supreme being, that I could never be a freemason.

Do I believe in G-d? That question, I find extremely personal, and not one I can readily answer with a “yes” or “no”. But the way my brethren formulated the question: something along the lines of “A Grand Architect Of The Universe” it was difficult to oppose and I readily accepted that something – anything – must be the creator of our known galaxies and universe.

Brethren, now that I am getting on in age, I am no longer active in the freemason’s lodge which initiated me, because I need to stay at home to caregive for an elderly stroke victim. I now know myself as agnostic, and was wondering, if and when I’m done caregiving some day, and want to rejoin lodge; will I still be considered a freemason if I’m agnostic? What if I don’t believe in a supreme being at all? I suppose that I MIGHT believe in a Supreme being, and that this is enough to attend.

However, this “question”, my brethren, has long kept me from attending lodge and even joining the scottish or york rite. To complicate things: In the York Rite you have to be Christian, according to the rules. I dont’ mind that, having been born into Orthodox Christianity; But what if I was jewish or something else? The response I’ve heard? “Of the two appendant bodies, the Scottish Rite is open to all, join that instead.” huh?

Brethren, this is an open letter online. Let us do away with such questions. I know Freemasony is an ancient craft. Let it be open to all, regardless of their beliefs.

As I once wrote:

“Neither politics, history or religion hath any bearing upon my soul …”

Steve Mini from the 6.

Former member of a Toronto Blue Lodge (not in good standing currently; I don’t get to lodge anymore, for personal reasons (caregiver to an old man keeps me home)).

Update: Why I never publish, really …

I joked somewhere that I’d write myself: “An Apology for Christendom (An apology on behalf of Christ)” and found “apologetics”; Because I am ever-gravitating towards atheism or agnosticism, regardless of my Orthodox Christian upbringing. I have several theories, where I postulate that God = Time, and come to several, humorous I would hope, conclusions, especially as pertains to hearing voices, i.e. “G-d”. Ask me for my writings if you’re interested. I’m a diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic. I don’t really fuck with G-d that much, and never publish – maybe posthumously – for I do not want to stir drama, backlash, and controversy. I’ve seen people persecuted for far less than a humorous quip; 85% of the world remains in the shackles of organized religion, according to Google. Last thing I need is death threats because I “blasphemed against G-d”. What epoch are we living in? Thankfully Canadian.

That having been said, choice morsels might be made available on the blog. I don’t really care too much about publishing books, and live comfortably below the poverty line already. Nobody’ll buy the buggers. I’m far better off blogging, though I fear the old ‘cut and paste’ that would inevitably see my work published elsewhere, without consent, and would hate to tell people ‘please take this down and credit the artist: me’. I know it’ll happen that way. People are horrible man. That’s why I live a life of seclusion, away from controversy and without publications. These days I’m a caregiver who rarely leaves his home, I care for my retired mother and her stroke victim of a husband, who needs my constant daily attentions, 7 days a week.

In the evenings and night-time I have time to think and write – all I could ask for, really – but never publish – and these days, seldom record my excellent and rather humorous conversations with myself – (I hear voices and converse with myself often).

I might leave no writings behind; perhaps for me writing is a personal experience.

On the other hand, I might publish on the blog or elsewhere online. So we’ll have to see!

“All art is art without form and void, like the sea;
We are the ones who give things shape, and form!”

“Neither politics, history or religion hath any bearing upon my soul;
For, I am an artist, and: we’re all artists, else none of us ever were.”

Stephen M. Miniotis;
“Steve Mini from the 6”.