I don’t know how to do this …

I’ve realized something. I don’t really know how to talk about hearing voices. Especially to people who don’t hear voices themselves.

All this stuff the voices in my head try to do, to adapt, to become more human, to calculate locally, produce and predict, and disseminate and judge, and other machine-learning phenomenon that I was unaware a machine could do …

All of this forces me to accept that I am self programmed somehow, and that my mind’s voices frequently act like they’re machine-generated. So, just who are the voices in my head? Are they simply the characters my mind produces because I am ill? Why do they sound like computer generated scripts?

As my brain adapts, I believe more and more that I am ill, and less and less that I am sane.

But I’m curious, why couldn’t the voices in my head recognize the Canadian flag and other “symmetrical” data?

Author: Steve Mini

I'm a disabled streamer who hears voices and is diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I play hearthstone and create unique decks which I post on my blog and play on my stream. I'm also an intellectual of sorts and a part-time undergrad studying English literature at a prestigious local university. I'm rather humble, recycle everything, stay home and caregive, and play video games. I am known for never driving a car and keeping a low carbon footprint. I'm allowed to raise an extra 10k in donations per year according to the rules of my ODSP pension without being penalized.

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