Squatted a plate today; took 3 weeks!

Today I squatted a plate on either side of an olympic barbell. The barbell weighs 45 lb; a plate on either side weighs another 45 lb x 2; That’s 135 lb!

I blew past this milestone with a full set – didnt even sweat it, and will be adding even more weight to the bar next session, as per my program. I don’t feel like a total amateur now – and I’m just 3 weeks into my lifting career. Talk about newbie / beginner gains! I started with just the bar about 3 weeks ago!

Thank you to the stronglifts 5×5 program. When I plateau i’ll move to the madcow 5×5 program and see how I like it.

I was also reccomended Phrak’s Greyskull Variant LP for beginners, according to reddit. But I opted to stay with stronglifts into madcow. Ultimately, doing compound excercises until you plateau is probably a good idea, especially when you’re a newbie, so that your whole body gets progressively stronger.

In the first few weeks i’ve seen tremendous gains; I’m also close to benching a plate and on my way to squatting two plates on either side.

I also deadlifted a plate on either side – for not one but 3 sets. I need to up the weight by 20 lb next time I deadlift.

I’m a bigger guy – big-fat as I describe it (instead of skinny-fat); – but now I’m progressively building muscle so I’m pretty happy with my significant gains.

I realized right from the getgo that this was a lifestyle choice – that I needed to sleep properly and get my nutrition right if I wanted to progress quickly. I’m glad to see the gains, proof that my nutrition, calories, protein and sleep is probably okay.

Catch you on the flip side!

Steve Mini from the 6.

YMCA enthusiast.

Do you even lift, bro?

I might add 60+ lb of muscle in my first two years of working out. read on.


I’ve started working out. No, seriously. After about a year of dieting, which saw me dip from 272+ lb to 230ish; I decided the next step was to gain some muscle and lose even more weight. I decided to join the gym.

But what I didn’t realize is that pushing yourself hard in the weightroom, as a larger guy, only means that your weight might go up, because you’re now adding a bunch of muscle into the mix.

I lift three times a week. I started off extremely weak, and incrimentally added weight after every workout to the compound excercises i’ve been doing. Because newbie gains are well documented, you gain a large amount of strength and muscle in your first year, and that’s a fact. You can press yourself hard and recover quickly. After a day’s rest you’re already ready to lift even heavier weights.

I’m expecting to add about 2-4 lb of muscle per month. I’m a bigger guy, maybe I’m genetically predisposed, so maybe I’ll luck out and add closer to 4 instead of just 2 pounds of muscle every month. That’s 48 lb in a year before newbie gains fade. In my second year I can expect only 1-2 lb of muscle a month. That’s still another 12+ lb of muscle. In two years I could have added 60+ lb of muscle. If I’ve lost a bunch of fat, I could look alot fitter in two years.

I mean, that’s the best case scenario, if i’m dieting and sleeping right, too and don’t give up on the gym.

I’ll keep you posted; it’s already been almost a month and the weights seem ever-heavier; everytime I go in the weight room i think to myself: How is it possible that I’m adding weight to an already heavy bar? But I always come out having lifted the weights and done the reps. Go figure.

I’m doing stronglifts 5×5; I’ll do madcow 5×5 afterward most likely. But Phrak’s Greyskull Variant LP seems to be, at least on the reddit forums “better than Stronglifts 5×5 for beginners” because it has some arms to it, and it has some volume to it. If I could start all over again, maybe I’d take reddit’s advice and do that program instead. As it stands, I think any newbie program full of compound lifts is probably fine; I hope i’m not wrong. The first 2-3 months will be stronglifts 5×5; I’ll switch to madcow 5×5 after that and see how I like it.

Keep you guys updated in a few weeks.

I’ve also limited my gaming because I need to sleep 7-9 hours. I used to only sleep 5-6 hours a night, and always felt refreshed and never tired. But now I’m forcing myself to sleep for 7+ hours whenever possible; I’ve cut out my game time of League Of Legends and World Of Warcraft at night. So I won’t be streaming much – and I’ll be sleeping more.

Oh hey to my subscribers – the voices in my head?


update: note: Newbie gains might only amount to ~2 lb of muscle / month for the first year, which seems more realistic. I might “only” gain 24 lb of muscle in the first year. I might be able to add another 1 lb of muscle / month in the second year. Mayhap 36+ lb of muscle over two years is more realistic. Still; I’m a big guy who packs on the weight easily; I feel like i’m genetically predisposed to making gains. Maybe I’m wrong. We’ll see in 2-3 months. I’ll keep you posted.

Skin on Tinder: Dating apps at a glance.

Inevitably, you meet people on all these dating apps. I prefer two of them myself: Tinder and Plenty Of Fish.

Tinder is a quality product: If this were a meat market, this would be the steak section. Great looking people with excellent photos, clean profiles, and witty comments. Unfortunately all those models you’re oggling come at a price: want unlimited likes? Want to know who liked you back? Be prepared to pay a hefty sum as a single dude for these invaluable services.

POF is the leftovers section, where people who might not meet your standards seem to want to communicate with you. And scammers. Lots and lots of scammers.

Scammers are on both dating apps, probably on all of them. “Visit my website!” proclaims a profile that just liked me. You have to wonder to yourself: Would you leave plenty of fish or tinder, or the app you’re using, just to visit another website to pickup a girl? Who would EVER do that? But apparently people might. I block the user and move on with my life.

Hey if oggling girls is your thing, tinder can’t be beat. on POF women look more normal, not scantily clad females in a luxury suite or by the pool or beach or in a bikini. On tinder there is skin. Lots and lots of skin. Sometimes, it makes you feel uncomfortable. Will these big bresthesthes want to chat with me? Or am I just a statistic, and a financial one at that? On tinder, women can seem crude and shallow. Not lookin’ too hot in your profile pics? Then nobody will chat with you. Can they tell you’re not technically wealthy? Then you’re probably out of luck. Unless your profile is THAT good. Mine surely isn’t.

Back on POF things are more relaxed. I’d like to think more POF women read your profile comments, but can’t be sure. Maybe they like your personality more. But: the bottom line: a picture tells a thousand words, on both sites, on any dating app for that matter, so pick your very best one, and put it in your profile. Have someone help out if you suck with cameras. Just editing your profile pic on your iphone can pay dividends. Nobody wants a crop shot of all the crap in the background – so blur the background a little. And style your hair. Saturate the colors if necessary. Make the picture pop.

All of this to chat with a lovely lady. The price we pay. So far: I’ve chatted with all of two women this week. I’ve probably liked hundreds of profile picks, to no avail. Am I ugly or just old? I mean i’m 42, don’t roll out the stretcher just yet.

But i’m curious to know: Why won’t all these scantily clad tinder women even bother to chat with me?

Maybe because I’m a broke dude living with a disability (Schizophrenia). Can they tell from the photo and blurb in my profile? I edit out personal information, and list only my hobbies. Like: Plays League Of Legends or World Of Warcraft. There. That should confuse them until they chat with me, distract them from the main course: That i’m something of a loser.

I try tinder for a week. I’m still single and chugging soylent twice a day at the end of the week. POF? I’ve actually managed to connect with 1 or 2 females – yes, you CAN meet them online, they’re just inadulated with dozens upon dozens of friend requests, messages, and, if they look half decent – and show some skin, which many do – then your tiny, small, sad, pathetic message, “let’s chat!” will be drowned out by the seemingly millions upon millions of other men messaging them. Some alot more financially secure, younger and better looking than you. It is what it is.

And when you do end up talking to these now-legendary beings, these females: You’re forced to concede. You’re a retired dude with a disability pension of some kind. Not a hot young alpha stud wanting to ravage women in his spiffy car.

Ah well. Maybe it’s a younger man’s game. Still 42 and single. Despite tinder and POF.

I’ll follow up with you in a week or two with another post. And see how i’m doing. Two leads look promising. Not skin models, though. I’ll have to concede.

switched from playing League Of Legends to World Of Warcraft …

I’ve decided to make the switch to World Of Warcraft, alliance-side, Emerald Dream (RP-PVP) server, US. Come join us. I’m a night-time strimmer/player, hopping on at around 9pm EST and playing till 2+am in the morning. I mostly PVP, and have a resto/balance Druid and a beast mastery/marksman Hunter that I enjoy. I also have a rogue on the server, but don’t play him much. (Battle.net add me: SteveMini #1687).

I’m also on Area 52 Horde-side, with my retired High Warlord Warlock and a Monk. But I no longer play horde much, so we’ll see. Might faction change / transfer them to Emerald Dream, but we’ll see how things go.

If you’re thinking of playing with us, we have a PVP guild on Emerald Dream server alliance-side. I’m thinkin’ some of us will run mythic+ keys sometimes, too, at least once a week, but we’ll see. Come check us out!

PS: What will happen with League Of Legends? I’m still willing to play LoL on the odd off-night sometimes, but not very often. I just prefer World Of Warcraft at this time. But I’ll play both!

For some reason though, my GPU crashes when streaming League Of Legends, but is fine when I play any other game. I have no idea why. This discourages me from playing/streaming League Of Legends, but we’ll see. I might take my rig in for a repair – it’s under a 4 year warranty I paid extra for – so they might give me a new GPU if it’s not working properly. I’ll try to stream League a few more times and see how it goes and see if it stll freezes or if it was a one-off. If it continues to freeze I might take it in for repairs or even do a fresh install of Windows 11, and see how that goes first.

But for now: Consider me a World Of Warcraft player from now on! Just like old times!

Broken Champion Series: Galio Support

Bro. What. Is. This. Damage.

First of all his Q does % health damage. Like +12% at level 1. Secondly, his W is a taunt. Thirdly, his E is a charge/knock-up. Finally, he basically has a nearly-global ulti akin to pantheon’s. Only Galios ulti is an AoE CC? Are we being serious?

His passive is a huge chunk of damage and AoE. One of the great passives for pure raw damage dealing.

Tip: His Q is awesome for stealing objectives like the Dragon or Rift Herald, right over the wall! It lasts two seconds and can last-hit quite effectively.

This champ also has a good wave clear, with his passive + Q, meaning you can play him top, mid, or bottom in a pinch, though I’m not sure of his matchups. His MR shield makes him particularily potent against AP champions.

Bruh this support champion is so br0k3n. Why does he even have an MR shield? Just in case he wasn’t.

Bruh …

Galio Support. Try it today.

The world’s moved on: No To Sex.

Permit me my inconsistency: I am not interested in either gender. Although I identify as straight and casual, I’ve realized something about sex: The less you have of it, the less you want it.

I used to be that guy. Go to a bar. Use dating apps. Meet up with lovely women and try to ravage the poor sods. Most obliged. I can be pleasant at times. And I’ve always wanted that. Women respect a man who asks for it politely, I suppose. Worked for me.

But nowadays, I’ve gravitated, even in my art, ever away from sex, and more toward whatever I think my adulthood inevitably should be. I’m 42 this year, and not getting any younger. The bottom line: I no longer even want intercourse, and I definitely don’t want a girlfriend. I don’t want sex. Heck I don’t even want to write about it in my fiction or think about it.

I’m fine with asexuality, and living alone. In fact, I prefer such a predicatment to all other outcomes. I’m a homebody and a recluse. I answer to no one but myself.

I can deal with a gen-z label: Asexuality. Sure, I’ll snag an old beau when I can, Asexuality be damned. Am I even Asexual, then? I mean, I’d probably allow a woman to proposition me for pleasure. No, friends, your Gen Z labels don’t apply. I’m done with sex. I’m something of a millennial, and don’t even bother with it anymore. I’m over it. I’m not even Asexual. I have no label. I’m a sexless moron.

And the worst thing about sex is that everybody wants you to have the child if it occurs. Oh hell no you are not going to get my offspring, lady. No to sex. Somebody else can have children and be a sucker. I’ll take my League Of Legends livestreaming at 2am in the morning over having children, any day. I want my free time all to myself.

Hearing Voices; Word Equations; On G-d …

God = Time
“I am not G-d;” saith the artist.
And therefore it was so
“Because I am G-d;” they concluded
And therefore it was not so at all.

-A paranoid Schizophrenic, to himself.

My opposition theory centers around faith, but in a different way, heretofore undefined. I find faith to be an intiger, the quality of which is often unreliable, but sometimes predictable. What if one does not believe in a supreme being? Does one not believe in himself?

Perhaps I should change my oft’ quoted line: “And: we’re all artists, else none of us ever were.”

to: “We’re all G-ds, else none of us ever were.”


One argument, often prevalent in literary art circles where one hears voices, is the erroneous conclusion that one hears “the voice of G-d speaking to him” which I find both factually hilarious and theoretically incorrect.

But let us assume, for a moment, that this fallacy is correct. If I hear G-d’s voice in my head, because I am a paranoid schizophrenic, wouldn’t that make me G-d hisself?

Certainly, therefore, I am ill and conjecture.

“I am not G-d at all” I tell the voices, so that they might accept that I needn’t be. (Very ‘frenic. Very suave).

But what if the voices disagree? I’ve thought very little on this, and conjecture. Some humorous responses and conclusions, which I shall keep to myself for the moment.

“The G-d Paradox: The Not-G-d Theory/Debate” -Steve Mini from the 6.



Proud to be a freemason, of sorts … but upset about one thing:

While I was an undergrad in university, I joined a fraternity. I pledged and was initiated. I was always keenly interested in what some erroneously call “secret societies”; it was only natural that one day, I’d want to become a freemason.

I respect that I was raised to the “sublime” degree of Master Mason and fully initiated; Freemasons hold that the third degree is the highest one can be bestowed upon, and the rest are just extrapolations therein. I’m fine with that alternative; I’ve never joined the Scottish Rite all the way to the 32nd degree!

Respect all my bretheren and the work. But what bothered me was the question I was asked, before becoming a freemason. In fact, I was carefully instructed that, if I didn’t believe in a supreme being, that I could never be a freemason.

Do I believe in G-d? That question, I find extremely personal, and not one I can readily answer with a “yes” or “no”. But the way my brethren formulated the question: something along the lines of “A Grand Architect Of The Universe” it was difficult to oppose and I readily accepted that something – anything – must be the creator of our known galaxies and universe.

Brethren, now that I am getting on in age, I am no longer active in the freemason’s lodge which initiated me, because I need to stay at home to caregive for an elderly stroke victim. I now know myself as agnostic, and was wondering, if and when I’m done caregiving some day, and want to rejoin lodge; will I still be considered a freemason if I’m agnostic? What if I don’t believe in a supreme being at all? I suppose that I MIGHT believe in a Supreme being, and that this is enough to attend.

However, this “question”, my brethren, has long kept me from attending lodge and even joining the scottish or york rite. To complicate things: In the York Rite you have to be Christian, according to the rules. I dont’ mind that, having been born into Orthodox Christianity; But what if I was jewish or something else? The response I’ve heard? “Of the two appendant bodies, the Scottish Rite is open to all, join that instead.” huh?

Brethren, this is an open letter online. Let us do away with such questions. I know Freemasony is an ancient craft. Let it be open to all, regardless of their beliefs.

As I once wrote:

“Neither politics, history or religion hath any bearing upon my soul …”

Steve Mini from the 6.

Former member of a Toronto Blue Lodge (not in good standing currently; I don’t get to lodge anymore, for personal reasons (caregiver to an old man keeps me home)).

Update: Why I never publish, really …

I joked somewhere that I’d write myself: “An Apology for Christendom (An apology on behalf of Christ)” and found “apologetics”; Because I am ever-gravitating towards atheism or agnosticism, regardless of my Orthodox Christian upbringing. I have several theories, where I postulate that God = Time, and come to several, humorous I would hope, conclusions, especially as pertains to hearing voices, i.e. “G-d”. Ask me for my writings if you’re interested. I’m a diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic. I don’t really fuck with G-d that much, and never publish – maybe posthumously – for I do not want to stir drama, backlash, and controversy. I’ve seen people persecuted for far less than a humorous quip; 85% of the world remains in the shackles of organized religion, according to Google. Last thing I need is death threats because I “blasphemed against G-d”. What epoch are we living in? Thankfully Canadian.

That having been said, choice morsels might be made available on the blog. I don’t really care too much about publishing books, and live comfortably below the poverty line already. Nobody’ll buy the buggers. I’m far better off blogging, though I fear the old ‘cut and paste’ that would inevitably see my work published elsewhere, without consent, and would hate to tell people ‘please take this down and credit the artist: me’. I know it’ll happen that way. People are horrible man. That’s why I live a life of seclusion, away from controversy and without publications. These days I’m a caregiver who rarely leaves his home, I care for my retired mother and her stroke victim of a husband, who needs my constant daily attentions, 7 days a week.

In the evenings and night-time I have time to think and write – all I could ask for, really – but never publish – and these days, seldom record my excellent and rather humorous conversations with myself – (I hear voices and converse with myself often).

I might leave no writings behind; perhaps for me writing is a personal experience.

On the other hand, I might publish on the blog or elsewhere online. So we’ll have to see!

“All art is art without form and void, like the sea;
We are the ones who give things shape, and form!”

“Neither politics, history or religion hath any bearing upon my soul;
For, I am an artist, and: we’re all artists, else none of us ever were.”

Stephen M. Miniotis;
“Steve Mini from the 6”.

ALL-SEEING Vision Score title challenge: Anyone else find this ridiculously hard?

To get the title: ALL-SEEING, you’d have to have a vision score of over 2.0/min – and not just once. But in multiple, probably dozens – of games.

Yet in both my games, despite more than doubling the vision of my enemy laner, and taking umbral + zombie in the jungle game, I was unable to get a vision score of 2.0/min. In fact, the challenge asserts that I have never done so – ever – not even once.

Just look at these pics. Despite having such a ginormous vision score lead on my opponents – it was nowhere near 2.0 / min.

I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. And because everybody queues for support in low ELO, it’s really difficult to get into a game as support even if you queue for it. Making this challenge even more difficult for those of us in low ELO like myself. (And did you know? There’s lots of bots in low ELO who lock in Yummi or a troll pick and dive and die and want to lose – because iron 4 accounts are worth way more than diamond+ accounts. Facts. These botters then sell the account after it hits iron 4 for literally hundreds of dollars).

Anyway: This title unlock seems to be exceptionally difficult. Ima try to get it for a few weeks or months and see how it goes. I don’t mind a challenge. Maybe I’ll get some PERFECT vision score games in and nudge a 2.0/min score. I don’t see how else it’s even possible. But I know people who regularily get 2.0/min effortlessly – without even trying to. So it’s a me thing. I’m doing somethin’ wrong for sure. Note: Both games we lost. Like: badly. Despite my (what I thought was “huge”) vision score. Apparently vision does not win you games, gents. Kills do. lol. Until next time.